Enlarged heart...
A
trip to Salt Lake City as a little girl; my mama, my sisters best friend Julie
and me... Hogle Zoo and Primary Children's Hospital. We were sent to a
cardiology specialist Dr Visi because the doctors in town were concerned I had
an enlarged heart...
When
I was examined he told my mama that I was fine... My heart was just a little
bigger...
Years
gone by and the memory faded until one afternoon as I sat in a parking lot with
tears running down my face and pain in my heart... I remembered his words... I
caught my breath and it became clear... My heart was large and it loved quickly
and deeply... It had been bruised and broken and I realized why it was so
fragile ... I had been given this heart because my purpose on this earth
is to love... He enlarged it because he knew I'd need the extra capacity... He
knew I would love hard and it would need to be resilient. He knew some people
wouldn't understand my love... If I have loved you, I will always love you;
maybe not in the same way~ maybe I would just love you for the lesson but I
would love you. And as deeply as my heart feels the pain of loving some, it
soars and swells with joy at loving others and those that love back. For years
I criticized myself for giving love so freely, but now I realize that love is
my superpower and regardless of the response I love anyway, it's just who I
am.
11-13-14
